bengang

today isn't about my tension day..
tapi seseorang yg slalu buat aku bengang. aku rasa ni bukan kali pertama aku bengang,tapi da tahap menyampah dah.
>>hari ni da masuk 2 hari aku x jumpa dia(wan) aku x kisah la apapun.. cuma kalau dah x jumpa tu,aku cuma harap dia ada masa la nak cll aku,borak2.
>>maybe dia menyampah nk wt mcm tu hari2.. so aku malas la nak bising2.. Aku pun ada hati..bukan nak suruh dia layan aku 24 jam pun.. salah ke aku yg smemangnya borink satu hari mengharapkan dia je nak layan aku. Phone aku ni pun xknn berbunyi kalau bukan dia yg bg msg. Aku dah malas nak memekak lg..skrg ni aku nak sendiri2 faham. Aku sabar je la,kalau dah mmg itu sikap dia.
>>td dia balik dlm kul 6,then ada gak ar dia cll. tapi kejap je la. kalau x cakap pun mmg dah tau aku nak sgt borak2 ngan dia. bila dia cll balik cakap nak g jumpa member dia.. aku rasa mcm aku ni x penting je. aku stress gle bila jd cmni. aku rasa xnk jumpa je untuk ms yg terdekat ni.. aku benci nak tgk muka dia. aku nak nangis je tiap kali mcm ni, coz i think that's just the only way to release my tension..... knp la di tak faham2 dgn perasaan aku. mcm mana nak "gve and take''???

Aku tension hari ni!!!!!!!!( aku xkn angkat pggilan dia mlm ni,maybe dia boleh hidup tanpa aku..)

haie nih yg boshol!!!!!

Hari ni, setelah 2 hari xdapat "menurun",aku gi umah fida then aku pow dia.
huhuhu...dari pagi tadi aku study math for last paper esok.. behnyer... pastu,
bleh ar aku bercuti dengan sewenang2nyer... ingatkan nak cuti 15 hari kat kl,dan 15 hari lagi kat
kampung.. ermm tengok lah nanti..

Paper math esok aku belum jawab lagik,tapi kepala dah ada kat kL.. aper lah aku ni..
dan hari ni aku rasa xda xtvt yang menarik yang aku nak layan.. cuma nak gi
lunch kat cafe ngan fidah sambil abiskan masa yang ada..

>>pasal wan,mlm td aku majuk lagi dgn dia.. pasal di melepak sampai malam the x roger kat aku..
sedih gle ar... aku dah ar nak dekat peot ni sensitif sikit..
dan dia tu buleh pula wat slumber badak je,dengan harapan aku paham dgn dia..
nasib baik dia pujuk,kalau x mesti aku bengang gle sampai harini..
Lg pun aku x la sampai nak fikir negatif..aku cuma amik berat..
takut kalau2 ada apa2 berlaku pada dia.. aku dah jauh..
Heish...simpang malaikat weh..

>>tadi "Ain" room mate fidah gi amik Exam,aku ngan fidah mcm
biasa arr "menurun"..Tiba2 ain ketuk bilik.."fidah..buka pintu jap.."
aku ngan dia gelabah macam umah nak goboh... si fidah pulak oleh kerana gelabah sangat,
pegi buka lampu.. yang aku ni asik gelak kat dia,tak sedar rokok aku dah terpenyek kat "ash_tray"..
still berapi.. fida lak sampai xnak buka pintu,da la si ain tu nak exam,lambat pulak..
pastu..lepas dia dah blah,aku gelak gle babas... muka fida mcm nampak antu,then wat2 xda apa2 berlaku..

to be continued......:p

addition..

Hola.. hari ni da hari kedua Wan kat bandung.. rasa sedey...
smlm dia ada gak sms,tapi dah malam baru dok ingat kat aku. Aku sabau jek.. then aku reply gak msg dia.. tapi dia reply dlm 2-3 kali,dah xda lg..hampa siyol... dah ar jauh.. aku rasa kehilangan jek.

Then hari ni pun macam tu gak,dari siang td ,lepas paper (comp app) ,aku tggu sampai mlm xda pun.. then lepas dinner baru ar dia bg msg "syg,u wat apa? Mindu kat b x?" then another one msg that he gave to me when i didn't reply "Abg rindu kat manja sgt2. How r u today?" aku sengaja jer x reply.. lantak arr.. nak marah malas lak..

pastu td dia call aku lbih kuang dalam 10x.. aku tau dia call,tapi aku nak puas kan hati..aku wat derk jek la..

skang n ngah study& mlepak kat (PKP).. baru lepas "cuci mulut" ngan member aku,Fyda si budak comey..

to be continued..

hari ni nyer citer

Eat.

Something that we do everyday.

Eat.

Is the simplest thing for us.

We eat what we can have.

Everyday is always a different food.

When we’re bored of eating something heavy, we eat something lighter.

And when we’re hungry, we eat something heavy.

It’s easy for us.

And for that, we rather cherish something else,

Something more minor,

Than cherish the moment,

When we get to eat some delectable food.

We somehow,

Don’t even mind about not finishing our meals,

Because to get food

Is always easy for us.

But then there’s India.

Or somewhere in the world.

Where there’s poverty.

Which hunger is a routine.

There are people,

Who go to bed on an empty stomach.

There is child,

Who dies from hunger.

And women sacrifices their foods,

Just for the sake of her hungry children.

Eat,

Is not something that is simple for them.

To get food,

Is not something that is easy for them.

And when they do get to eat,

They cherish it

Like it’s the last.

But we,

Continue living with our enrichment,

Continue not to mind,

About how we’re lucky,

To get to eat a slice of bread in the morning,

Or eating pizza on the evening.

Eat,

Is the easiest thing,

And the hardest thing.