Hei..i'm back.
Time flies.
After I got pregnant the second time, how i wish to hav a girl on the upnext. IF it was a girl then I would have to buy all new stuff, I would get to do mother-daughter things and I've gotta dress em' up.
On the 2nd trim, i drove myself early than the estimated appmnt stated in the pregnancy card. Am so excited whenever Dr Jaafar (Ob gyn specialist in Kpj Tawakkal Hosp) said that he'll let me knw on the next appmt. So there i go, with the sparkled eyes plus the anticipation n hoping much it wud b 'yeayy..congratulations, its a girl!'
Guess what? its a boy! I mean.. well, yeah is it necessary despite the fact that if i having another boy in mylife? How about I just b happy that I've finally gave birth to a healthy baby? Isnt that wonderful? Allahu..(wth that i'm thinkin of??) Alhamdulillah, having 2 boys in my life is constantly full of excitement and adventure.
1. Short-shirt-ready to go : Easy dress up! boys love their mom n usually as we knw they've being momma-boys even after they get married. Its a bond thet u cant ever compare between momn son where they'll always come 2 u when u need somethin, like mommy always knw what best.
2. The test : As they get older, i dun hav to worry about the heels, the low cut hijab, dress or skirts. Just throw on a nice shirt n pair of jeans n they're gud 2 go.
3. Balances of my Girly Girl life : Maybe theres a type of woman who doesnt like to spend so much make up or even accessories n perfumes instead. To b truth, i'm a totally girly girl. I love cosmetics, accessories, jewelery n etc. I do always put on make up just 4 the sake of pegi kedai mamak beli bfast! Can u believe it? it takes me very minimal time to get my boys ready since I have no hair pins or fancy shoes or accessories to focus on.
4. Besties : The brotherly bond. I've been travelled a lot with my boys. Last time it was in Krabi. As the driver drove fast n suddenly brakes, lil'bryan adams hug his brotha tightly as he almost fell off frm the seats! *i turn my head n Wept my tears off before i get caught.
5. Kinda nice for being someone that they're depending on. They look up to me, respect me n truly depend on me which make me feel great!
To all mommas that having two boys or more. You are awesome!!
*Cant wait for the Berkhatan's Ceremony!
Blue_
14 January 2016
07 January 2016
Lagu yg mengkhayalkan diri.
..dan bagai menari2 si semangat jahat.
[Kelana]
Aduh Neng... hadirmu tidak pernah kuseru
Aduh Neng... cukuplah merasuk ikut nafsu
Aduh Neng... kepindingmu sudah masuk baju
Aduh Neng... Aduh Neng...
VERSE 1
[Agenda]
Yang malam semalam malam ni atau malam tu,
Yang selama ini alkisahnya tetap satu,
Yang bertemu ratu atau yang dilontar batu,
Yang musykil itu aku, kelkatu atau hantu?
Rembulan purnama yang penuh mahupun terang,
Terdengar riuhan keramaian atau perang,
Penglihatan kabur kadangnya mengundang berang,
Yang kudengar gema pukul gamelan dan gendang,
Si empunya gong tembaga,
Ukirannya berkepala naga naga saga,
Berpesta wahai lembaga,
Meriahnya mereka sedia untuk memperaga,
Sekelian seperangkat dan seangkatan,
Seakan tak perasan tanpa sekatan,
Setanggi menyemarakkan lagi,
Pesta karut jadi gempita larut pagi.
CHORUS
[Kelana]
Aduh Neng... hadirmu tidak pernah kuseru
Aduh Neng... cukuplah merasuk ikut nafsu
Aduh Neng... kepindingmu sudah masuk baju
Aduh Neng... Aduh Neng...
VERSE 2
[Kirana]
Namaku Neng Dayang
Nikmati gemalai mayang
Diri di tengah gelanggang
Mari masuk ikut pandang
Nadi iring palu gendang
Gong tembaga menitir canang
Andainya nanti aku hilang
Usah diserang jiwaku tenang
Direntap selempang saat Si Lumping berjaga,
Sembilan penunggang bersedia menghentak raga,
Dikecap sedulang santapan dari penjaga,
Sambilan bergendang gamelan berlima warga,
Memuncak gemuruhnya dalam malam kudusku,
Setanggi diperasap mantera menghunusku,
Yang lihat itu nyata yang rasukku berkuku,
Muslihat pintu mata rahsianya terbuku.
CHORUS
[Kelana]
Aduh Neng... hadirmu tidak pernah kuseru
Aduh Neng... cukuplah merasuk ikut nafsu
Aduh Neng... kepindingmu sudah masuk baju
Aduh Neng... Aduh Neng...
VERSE 3
[Kelana]
Mata kabur hati tak menentu,
Meremang‐remang bulu romaku,
Jampi serapah telinga berpusu,
Siapa yang menuju?
Pusing kepala mendongak ke awan,
Pohon lindungan darimu gemawan,
Kuleraikan pedati di tangan,
Kuda kulepaskan.
[Kelana & Kirana]
Sikit‐sikit ditarik,
Perlahan dikepit,
Hilang rasa serik,
Yang tinggal hanya nafsu‐nafsi
Sikit‐sikit ditarik,
Perlahan dikepit,
Hilang rasa serik,
Yang tinggal hanya nafsu‐nafsi.
CHORUS
[Kelana]
Aduh Neng... hadirmu tidak pernah kuseru
Aduh Neng... cukuplah merasuk ikut nafsu
Aduh Neng... kepindingmu sudah masuk baju
Aduh Neng... Aduh Neng...
OUTRO
[Nukilan]
Aduh Neng...
(Mantera Jawa)
Aduh Neng...
[Kelana]
Aduh Neng... hadirmu tidak pernah kuseru
Aduh Neng... cukuplah merasuk ikut nafsu
Aduh Neng... kepindingmu sudah masuk baju
Aduh Neng... Aduh Neng...
VERSE 1
[Agenda]
Yang malam semalam malam ni atau malam tu,
Yang selama ini alkisahnya tetap satu,
Yang bertemu ratu atau yang dilontar batu,
Yang musykil itu aku, kelkatu atau hantu?
Rembulan purnama yang penuh mahupun terang,
Terdengar riuhan keramaian atau perang,
Penglihatan kabur kadangnya mengundang berang,
Yang kudengar gema pukul gamelan dan gendang,
Si empunya gong tembaga,
Ukirannya berkepala naga naga saga,
Berpesta wahai lembaga,
Meriahnya mereka sedia untuk memperaga,
Sekelian seperangkat dan seangkatan,
Seakan tak perasan tanpa sekatan,
Setanggi menyemarakkan lagi,
Pesta karut jadi gempita larut pagi.
CHORUS
[Kelana]
Aduh Neng... hadirmu tidak pernah kuseru
Aduh Neng... cukuplah merasuk ikut nafsu
Aduh Neng... kepindingmu sudah masuk baju
Aduh Neng... Aduh Neng...
VERSE 2
[Kirana]
Namaku Neng Dayang
Nikmati gemalai mayang
Diri di tengah gelanggang
Mari masuk ikut pandang
Nadi iring palu gendang
Gong tembaga menitir canang
Andainya nanti aku hilang
Usah diserang jiwaku tenang
Direntap selempang saat Si Lumping berjaga,
Sembilan penunggang bersedia menghentak raga,
Dikecap sedulang santapan dari penjaga,
Sambilan bergendang gamelan berlima warga,
Memuncak gemuruhnya dalam malam kudusku,
Setanggi diperasap mantera menghunusku,
Yang lihat itu nyata yang rasukku berkuku,
Muslihat pintu mata rahsianya terbuku.
CHORUS
[Kelana]
Aduh Neng... hadirmu tidak pernah kuseru
Aduh Neng... cukuplah merasuk ikut nafsu
Aduh Neng... kepindingmu sudah masuk baju
Aduh Neng... Aduh Neng...
VERSE 3
[Kelana]
Mata kabur hati tak menentu,
Meremang‐remang bulu romaku,
Jampi serapah telinga berpusu,
Siapa yang menuju?
Pusing kepala mendongak ke awan,
Pohon lindungan darimu gemawan,
Kuleraikan pedati di tangan,
Kuda kulepaskan.
[Kelana & Kirana]
Sikit‐sikit ditarik,
Perlahan dikepit,
Hilang rasa serik,
Yang tinggal hanya nafsu‐nafsi
Sikit‐sikit ditarik,
Perlahan dikepit,
Hilang rasa serik,
Yang tinggal hanya nafsu‐nafsi.
CHORUS
[Kelana]
Aduh Neng... hadirmu tidak pernah kuseru
Aduh Neng... cukuplah merasuk ikut nafsu
Aduh Neng... kepindingmu sudah masuk baju
Aduh Neng... Aduh Neng...
OUTRO
[Nukilan]
Aduh Neng...
(Mantera Jawa)
Aduh Neng...
06 January 2016
Good bye to miserable life!
Monday..Tuesday..Wednesday..ayy..
It was a quiet and peaceful weekdays.
As i mention before, have other goals set, but they aren't so much resolutions as habits I want to maintain e.g (read another 26 books, registering maself study, go 2 the gym more oftenly, drink more water, spend less time looking at my iPhone, blog once a week, be a compassionate human being, good friend, looking out for a new life partner, avoiding dramas, less fickle in my heart, etc.
Overall I'm looking forward to the New Year Mood. Thou 2015 was tough but it's ending on a good lesson for me to learn which now I'm entering 2016 full of hope and gratitude, and that wud b an excellent place to start i guess.
I've been writing this blog for over 9 years, and in all that time I've never strayed far from the "personal blog" category.Overall this blog has been a slow and steady compilation of my life. And it wasn't unique, either. Remember, I started blogging back when we all had LiveJournal accounts, Xanga and wrote aimlessly about our day, sharing too many details about our love lives, big dreams, and irrational fears. The most part of blogging world is much cause of I'm a nosy person in nature, I just keep on sharing story with ppl.
Melangkah lebih jauh from now on! 2016. Leave all the sadness n sorrow behind. God bless me and all of you.
I hope your New Year was just as lovely but significantly more brighter than before.
I'm On to the next Adventure!
Stand by me,
Bluesands_xoxo.
It was a quiet and peaceful weekdays.
As i mention before, have other goals set, but they aren't so much resolutions as habits I want to maintain e.g (read another 26 books, registering maself study, go 2 the gym more oftenly, drink more water, spend less time looking at my iPhone, blog once a week, be a compassionate human being, good friend, looking out for a new life partner, avoiding dramas, less fickle in my heart, etc.
Overall I'm looking forward to the New Year Mood. Thou 2015 was tough but it's ending on a good lesson for me to learn which now I'm entering 2016 full of hope and gratitude, and that wud b an excellent place to start i guess.
I've been writing this blog for over 9 years, and in all that time I've never strayed far from the "personal blog" category.Overall this blog has been a slow and steady compilation of my life. And it wasn't unique, either. Remember, I started blogging back when we all had LiveJournal accounts, Xanga and wrote aimlessly about our day, sharing too many details about our love lives, big dreams, and irrational fears. The most part of blogging world is much cause of I'm a nosy person in nature, I just keep on sharing story with ppl.
Melangkah lebih jauh from now on! 2016. Leave all the sadness n sorrow behind. God bless me and all of you.
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| Hi, Name is Ai nee. 2016. Wanna be my partner? Lets hang out! |
I hope your New Year was just as lovely but significantly more brighter than before.
I'm On to the next Adventure!
Stand by me,
Bluesands_xoxo.
Wordless wednesday.
"Yakinkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu..
Hapus aku...
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu..
Hapus aku...
Sedarkan aku Tuhan
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu, waktu..
Hapus aku..."
Dia bukan milikku
Biarkan waktu, waktu..
Hapus aku..."
Buang semua puisi
antara kita berdua.
_blue
04 January 2016
This feelings is terrible.
I did it again.
Sorry for giving u much of hope n destroyed it all of a sudden in a middle of joy that we've been created together.
Now.
Look at me, I'm a mistake.
From the moment you saw me,
don't you think that ur feelings is all wrong?
Don't you?
Yeah, nobody screwed up myself better than me.
I'm truly sorry.
Sorry for giving u much of hope n destroyed it all of a sudden in a middle of joy that we've been created together.
Now.
Look at me, I'm a mistake.
From the moment you saw me,
don't you think that ur feelings is all wrong?
Don't you?
Yeah, nobody screwed up myself better than me.
I'm truly sorry.
Bang my head.
Bang in my head (DG ft Sia n Fetty Wap)
I was bound, was tired
Hadn't seen a light so long
Thought I lost my fight
Couldn't find my way back home
And I found the light stepping out of me
I was bound, and tired
Waiting for daylight
[Pre-Chorus:]
Bang my head up against the wall
Though I feel light headed, now I know I will not fall
I will rise above it all
Found what I was searching for
Though I feel light headed
I should have failed, and nailed the floor
Instead I rose above it all
[Chorus:]
Oh, oh, oh
Bang my head up against the wall
Oh, oh, oh
Instead I rose above it all
(Bang my head against the wall)
[Verse 2:]
When you think you're giving up
Just know, you might think you're dying but you won't
And you feel the love stepping out of you
But when you think of giving up, don't
[Pre-Chorus:]
Bang your head up against the wall
You may feel light headed, but you won't crawl, no, you won't fall
You will rise above it all
You'll find what you're searching for
And you may feel light headed
You think you're gonna hit the floor
Instead you rise above it all
[Chorus:]
Oh, oh, oh
Bang your head against the wall
Oh, oh, oh
Instead you rise above it all
(Bang my head against the wall)
[Bridge:]
I have broken wings
I keep trying, keep trying
No one get out
Oh I'm flying, oh I'm flying
[Pre-Chorus:]
Bang my head against the wall
Though I feel light headed, now I know I will not fall
I will rise above it all
Found what I was searching for
Though I feel light headed, I should have failed, and nailed the floor
Instead I rose above it all
[Chorus:]
Oh, oh, oh
Bang my head up against the wall
Oh, oh, oh
Bang my head against the wall
Bang my head against the wall
Instead I rise above it all
I was bound, was tired
Hadn't seen a light so long
Thought I lost my fight
Couldn't find my way back home
And I found the light stepping out of me
I was bound, and tired
Waiting for daylight
[Pre-Chorus:]
Bang my head up against the wall
Though I feel light headed, now I know I will not fall
I will rise above it all
Found what I was searching for
Though I feel light headed
I should have failed, and nailed the floor
Instead I rose above it all
[Chorus:]
Oh, oh, oh
Bang my head up against the wall
Oh, oh, oh
Instead I rose above it all
(Bang my head against the wall)
[Verse 2:]
When you think you're giving up
Just know, you might think you're dying but you won't
And you feel the love stepping out of you
But when you think of giving up, don't
[Pre-Chorus:]
Bang your head up against the wall
You may feel light headed, but you won't crawl, no, you won't fall
You will rise above it all
You'll find what you're searching for
And you may feel light headed
You think you're gonna hit the floor
Instead you rise above it all
[Chorus:]
Oh, oh, oh
Bang your head against the wall
Oh, oh, oh
Instead you rise above it all
(Bang my head against the wall)
[Bridge:]
I have broken wings
I keep trying, keep trying
No one get out
Oh I'm flying, oh I'm flying
[Pre-Chorus:]
Bang my head against the wall
Though I feel light headed, now I know I will not fall
I will rise above it all
Found what I was searching for
Though I feel light headed, I should have failed, and nailed the floor
Instead I rose above it all
[Chorus:]
Oh, oh, oh
Bang my head up against the wall
Oh, oh, oh
Bang my head against the wall
Bang my head against the wall
Instead I rise above it all
30 December 2015
Smiley baby
AII
my 2nd hero.
takde pic yg dia x sUnyum!
(^_^)
Alhamdulillah..anugerah dari Allah
yang sangat x ternilai.
Dari baby, senang diasuh.
Tak bangun malam.
tdur seawal 9 malam tiap hari.
penuh senyuman.
lasak dan x mudah nangis if jatuh, terantuk etc..
suka panjat tinggi2.
manja dan suka cebik bibir mcm papa dia.
sebijik weck!
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| hai! |
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| aaaa?? |
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| abislaa player mummy ! |
Gigi aku.
AAD.
miliki gg aku.
Satu hari nnt dia sure ade gg taring
overlapping mcm aku!
mata aku.
bibir aku.
rambut aku.
kening aku.
comel mcm aku.
Eh!!
Ahahaha..apsal gelak?
aku x comel ke?
23 December 2015
Susah nk Pregnant Vs Senang nk Pregnant.
Kalau berita ttg kehamilan tu benar..
Alhamdulillah sujud syukurku pd Maha Pencipta.
Teringin sgt nak tengok mereka berdua ada zuriat sendiri.
Terlalu lama mereka menanti kehadiran 'org baru' dlm family kecil mereka.
Mudah2an ianya benar belaka!
Allah menentukan nasib kita manusia tu dlm pelbagai keadaan. Terutamanya dlm rezeki anak. Ada yg mudah utk conceived, ada yg payah.. malah yang paling sedih pada pasangan yg berkahwin bila diuji dgn tiada zuriat hingga ke akhirnya. Jika nk diikutkan mmg sedih, tapi siapalah kita utk pertikaikan ketetuan SWT. Namun, itu semua banyak hikmahnya.
Thing happen for a reason. There MUST be a REASON.
Its Positive!!
Pic of me preggy kan
Adam Danial dulu.
hahaha..
17 December 2015
3D2Nights in Phuket.
Dari airport lg taxi driver da tanya hotel mana, so dlm kepala ada Tiger Hotel je yg melekat over 50 hotel yg aku survey. Well, mmg fun thou hotel tu mcm hard rock hotel (lobby ada live band) plus non-halal place. Aku x pedulik! Sbb nk bermalam je pun.
Drop bag n blah terus g cari makan. Kebulur dari jam 3ptg kat KL sentral lg. Sian icha anak kak ira sbb dia baya ank aku je, tapi x dpt rehat yg cukup. Tapi dia x banyak bunyi. Senyap dlm 'kantung' *omak eh. (mak dia). Makanan halal memang payah nk dpt, pandai2 laa cari eh. Sudahnya, malam tu aku makan Megi yg dibeli kat 7E Thai. Halal sign? AKu x pandang. *haihh.
Lps makan blah g Bangla Road (nama pun bangla, ramai bangladeshi ke?) ahaha..x lah. Ianya mcm Hell on Earth! Kenapa Hell? Kau jalan kaki, kau naik tuk-tuk pun dah bersepah manusia BOGEL merata2 jalan. Manakala dikedai makan n minum, yg betinanya diatas meja meliuk2 dgn pakaian bra n thong! Pheww..mmg neraka terbakar mata org lelaki!! Kah kah kahh..! Tak kurang juga kedai 2 tingkat, selalunya tingkat atas tu diletakkan patung seperti gedung pakaian Jakel atau Kamdar sebagai display, Tapi kat sini dia display real-lady bogel kat atas tuh! Silap2 bawa kete/tuk-tuk langgau tiang eksiden terleka!! hahaha..
Mission mlm tu sbb nk cari tour boat agent utk activity esoknya. So lps recke agent island tour, kami decide amik speedboat 3 star utk 1 day full trip (Maya island, PhiPhi Island, Monkey Bay, Viking Bay, Loh Samah, Khai Island). Esoknya ready tggu van pick up utk dibawa ke jetty.
Mode excited membuak2 sbb aku dan island, berpisah tiada. Haha.
*enjoy the pics.
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| Me, Kak Ira, Diego (chef) n Sam from Verona- Italy. |
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| Phi - Phi Isle |
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| Me n Muhammad from Kuwait. |
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| MaYa Bay |
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| Maya Island View (island yg Leonardi De Caprio berlakon dlm filem The Beach" -sebagai paradise on earth! seriously Pulau ciptaan Allah yang sangat Stunning! |
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| Muhammad frm Kuwaits ni aku nama kan dia sbg geng GAY. Sbb adik berpeluk aje dgn kengkawan. Tak baik aku ni! Maybe dia sgt friendly ke apa kan? |
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| Long tail boat from our speed boat. |
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| Err..hello buddy! |
| Thai Boxing at our Hotel. |
| Tiger Hotel! antara hotel yg terkenal kat sini. |
| Rate hotel hard rock murah kat sini! Time ni teman kak ira g beli jacket Hard Rock Phuket ni. |
| Illuzion!! Disco baru from American kat sini yg juga mengundang mood x best kat Tiger Hotel yg selalunya monopoly tourists di bar2 mereka yg kini semakin kurang sambutan! |
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| Sepanjang jalan di Bangla Road dijamu dgn wanita2 yg gemar menebeng kelamin pada pengunjung! Yang lebih hebat, x pakai sependa! Itu harga lain pula!! Wee.. |
| those giant rubber ducky damn cute! and so are you Aini! -jerit si Alex dari Sao Paolo! _thank you bro. Kahkahkah! |
20 November 2015
Switch
Been thinking of shutdown this site n start new, then again dunno where to begin.
Oh hi.
Happy birthday to Me n Ahmad Imran Isaac! 28 and 1.
Both of us pun xda celebration apa2 even cake.
Yesterday got appointment utk cucuk Imran, but I set it to Monday next.
Wud like to thanks weck cuz masih bermurah hati belanja dinner which I din aspect that.
Thanks a millions partner.
Next week bday anak sulung. Yes another November-ians!
Life so far xda difficulties yg melampau accept for kewangan yg teruk.
But apa2pun rezeki tu terletak pd Allah, bukan pd manusia. Alhamdulillah..
tgk org tempang dgn kaki terkulai pulang dari masjid each time cukup buat aku insafi
semua 'rezeki' diri dari SWT. Maka dgn itu, aku xnak lagi sia2 kan hidup
bersandar dan meratapi semua yg berlalu.
There are far better ahead than any that left behind. Its a chance for me to re-build
on what I want. Above all, I noticed that people always wishin' that they want a new life or a chance to start over, well.. the truth is, you got that chance for everyday but you, yourself chose not to change it.
Closed the door to my past and open the door to my future. Here I am, looking fwd for a new adventure in life and brand new ending all of my chapter!
--sambung study next year n terus sampai phd. (aamiin! aamiin! aamiin!) Tak kisah kena bond dgn kompeni sekali pun. :)
*enjoy life to the maxx. no point to gloomy no more!
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(Ada mak sedara bertanya ttg jodoh pd aku, well itu kerja Allah, kalau jodoh sampai.. aku jwb :
Oh hi.
Happy birthday to Me n Ahmad Imran Isaac! 28 and 1.
Both of us pun xda celebration apa2 even cake.
Yesterday got appointment utk cucuk Imran, but I set it to Monday next.
Wud like to thanks weck cuz masih bermurah hati belanja dinner which I din aspect that.
Thanks a millions partner.
Next week bday anak sulung. Yes another November-ians!
Life so far xda difficulties yg melampau accept for kewangan yg teruk.
But apa2pun rezeki tu terletak pd Allah, bukan pd manusia. Alhamdulillah..
tgk org tempang dgn kaki terkulai pulang dari masjid each time cukup buat aku insafi
semua 'rezeki' diri dari SWT. Maka dgn itu, aku xnak lagi sia2 kan hidup
bersandar dan meratapi semua yg berlalu.
There are far better ahead than any that left behind. Its a chance for me to re-build
on what I want. Above all, I noticed that people always wishin' that they want a new life or a chance to start over, well.. the truth is, you got that chance for everyday but you, yourself chose not to change it.
Closed the door to my past and open the door to my future. Here I am, looking fwd for a new adventure in life and brand new ending all of my chapter!
--sambung study next year n terus sampai phd. (aamiin! aamiin! aamiin!) Tak kisah kena bond dgn kompeni sekali pun. :)
*enjoy life to the maxx. no point to gloomy no more!
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(Ada mak sedara bertanya ttg jodoh pd aku, well itu kerja Allah, kalau jodoh sampai.. aku jwb :
"haa, if you hav the guts, meet my dad and ask for his permission! if he say yes, then yes to me"
~ Hi, my name is Ain! and I'm ready now. Lets go!
Miss B.
hugs.
09 November 2015
Farewell.
Entah mana aku harus mula.
Pastinya, tiap2 kejadian yang berlaku..
disusuli dengan pengajaran.
Yet i'm still in a learning process of life.
Not just me, but all of us.
Dibebani dengan sesuatu yang besar dan amat berat.
Sakit yang sukar digambar.
Terasa dicucuk setiap nerve tubuh.
Hidung terasa panas,
Air mata terasa deras.
Kau x sepenuh hati dalam berubah.
Kau lupa janji kau pada Allah.
Senyumlah. Nikmati hidup yang sementara
.
Akan tiba Satu hari, aku pasti kau ingati.
Semua gelak tawa kita, semua cerita cinta kita,
jatuh bangun kita.
Allah takkan bebani atas apa yang aku x termampu.
Malah, Allah kurniakan kesenangan didalam setiap kesempitan yang aku lalui.
I found myself in peace when i'm no longer hoping that u'll change ur mind n begging me to stay.
Take care my friend.
You're the best and the most unforgettable thing that ever happen in mylife.
Kini tiba kita di persimpangan jalan.
Have a safe journey.
Farewell buddy.
ur B.
Pastinya, tiap2 kejadian yang berlaku..
disusuli dengan pengajaran.
Yet i'm still in a learning process of life.
Not just me, but all of us.
Dibebani dengan sesuatu yang besar dan amat berat.
Sakit yang sukar digambar.
Terasa dicucuk setiap nerve tubuh.
Hidung terasa panas,
Air mata terasa deras.
Kau x sepenuh hati dalam berubah.
Kau lupa janji kau pada Allah.
Senyumlah. Nikmati hidup yang sementara
.
Akan tiba Satu hari, aku pasti kau ingati.
Semua gelak tawa kita, semua cerita cinta kita,
jatuh bangun kita.
Allah takkan bebani atas apa yang aku x termampu.
Malah, Allah kurniakan kesenangan didalam setiap kesempitan yang aku lalui.
I found myself in peace when i'm no longer hoping that u'll change ur mind n begging me to stay.
Take care my friend.
You're the best and the most unforgettable thing that ever happen in mylife.
Kini tiba kita di persimpangan jalan.
Have a safe journey.
Farewell buddy.
ur B.
06 November 2015
Alhamdulillah Baby Girl
05 November 2015
Takut.
Ni 1st time aku rasa x berani nk comment psl c-sect.
Layan vids tu takda masalah, cuma bila my bloodsis yg bakal alami,
aku muhasabah diri.
Dlm doa aku pun recently banyak doa kat kak long je,
moga dipermudahkan kelahiran anak buah aku yg ke-3 tu.
Dlm excited nak terima orang baru, aku pula yg nervous lebih.
Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Pengasihani.
Barilah kami kekuatan di dalam menempuh ujian2-MU.
La Hawlawala Kuwwata'illabillahi Aliyyil'azim.
Allahumma la ilaha illa anta subhanaka inni kuntu minnazoliminn.
Rabbi Yassir, wala tu'assir.. Rabbi tam mim bil khayr. Birohmatika Ya Ar Rahmanrohimin.
Aamiin! Aamiin! Aamiin!
_bluesands
Layan vids tu takda masalah, cuma bila my bloodsis yg bakal alami,
aku muhasabah diri.
Dlm doa aku pun recently banyak doa kat kak long je,
moga dipermudahkan kelahiran anak buah aku yg ke-3 tu.
Dlm excited nak terima orang baru, aku pula yg nervous lebih.
Ya Allah, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Pengasihani.
Barilah kami kekuatan di dalam menempuh ujian2-MU.
La Hawlawala Kuwwata'illabillahi Aliyyil'azim.
Allahumma la ilaha illa anta subhanaka inni kuntu minnazoliminn.
Rabbi Yassir, wala tu'assir.. Rabbi tam mim bil khayr. Birohmatika Ya Ar Rahmanrohimin.
Aamiin! Aamiin! Aamiin!
_bluesands
03 November 2015
Welcome November
Plis. Plis. Plis
Be NICE to me.
9-NOV (MY BIRTHDAY)
14- NOV (Ahmad Imran Issaac Birthday)
26- NOV ( Ahmad Adam Danial Birthday)
We were Born in November!
_________________________________________________________________
So tgh fikir bila nk celeb bday kami anak beranak!!
A perty on my crib perhaps?
Helium balloon, nice decorations, cake and etc..etc
Whoaaa..nice one! :)
Danial 5 Years!
Imran Issaac 1 Year!
How can I ever forget the moment I heard your voice and took
you in my arms. The feelings, the tears and the grateful shade are
mix up altogether bring out the joy+happiness in mylife ever.
Syukran Ya Allah for this little angels in my life.
Happy Birthday my dear sons! Ocean size love!!
From,
Mummy.
Be NICE to me.
9-NOV (MY BIRTHDAY)
14- NOV (Ahmad Imran Issaac Birthday)
26- NOV ( Ahmad Adam Danial Birthday)
We were Born in November!
_________________________________________________________________
So tgh fikir bila nk celeb bday kami anak beranak!!
A perty on my crib perhaps?
Helium balloon, nice decorations, cake and etc..etc
Whoaaa..nice one! :)
Danial 5 Years!
Imran Issaac 1 Year!
How can I ever forget the moment I heard your voice and took
you in my arms. The feelings, the tears and the grateful shade are
mix up altogether bring out the joy+happiness in mylife ever.
Syukran Ya Allah for this little angels in my life.
Happy Birthday my dear sons! Ocean size love!!
From,
Mummy.
Disappointed much.
Petzl Marathon yg mengecewakan.
Since sept lagi dah settlekan payment
and ready. My bad la sbb x remind BIL utk ambilkan sekali. So race kit aku akn collect during the race day frm 10am - 6pm. The race started at 8.30pm (supposedly)
31 OCT 2015:
Weck hantar kereta at 6pm. Struggle atas hiway dgn jammed hari sabtu mmg nauzubillah! Sampai putrajaya dah gelap gelita! While jam baru 815pm! kak kay call utk race kit confirmation, but dia ckp my bib was GONE MISSING!! Pissed off juga la. Claimed that Chinese Lady mana la yg rembat! Okay aku slowdown cari venue race tu dlm hujan yang super lebat! Lucky lah hujan turun so race mula lambat sikit, maybe at 845pm or 9pm. Tapi
hati yang berkecai sbb bib kene rembat still there lah. Pay for nothing la kiranya. Sakit hati lagi.
Lost in putrajaya! Macam bugima! Seriously macam org gila kat. About 4 times dlm jarak 2-3KM pusing2 roundabout! Well, even jalan nk ke putrajaya frm KL pun aku redah macam hape dah berpandukan WAZE GPS yes! Sakitnya hati, sesat barat! Dulu duk tumpang org je pegi sana, even jalan dlm KL ni mmg failed!
So jadi pengajaran laa buat diri sendiri! Tho its not my fault pun, hikmah dia : sila berusaha sendiri!
Erghh..
Now tunggu kak kay bg race kit. Hmm..this is the last marathon utk taun ni kut. Adehh.
Since sept lagi dah settlekan payment
and ready. My bad la sbb x remind BIL utk ambilkan sekali. So race kit aku akn collect during the race day frm 10am - 6pm. The race started at 8.30pm (supposedly)
31 OCT 2015:
Weck hantar kereta at 6pm. Struggle atas hiway dgn jammed hari sabtu mmg nauzubillah! Sampai putrajaya dah gelap gelita! While jam baru 815pm! kak kay call utk race kit confirmation, but dia ckp my bib was GONE MISSING!! Pissed off juga la. Claimed that Chinese Lady mana la yg rembat! Okay aku slowdown cari venue race tu dlm hujan yang super lebat! Lucky lah hujan turun so race mula lambat sikit, maybe at 845pm or 9pm. Tapi
hati yang berkecai sbb bib kene rembat still there lah. Pay for nothing la kiranya. Sakit hati lagi.
Lost in putrajaya! Macam bugima! Seriously macam org gila kat. About 4 times dlm jarak 2-3KM pusing2 roundabout! Well, even jalan nk ke putrajaya frm KL pun aku redah macam hape dah berpandukan WAZE GPS yes! Sakitnya hati, sesat barat! Dulu duk tumpang org je pegi sana, even jalan dlm KL ni mmg failed!
So jadi pengajaran laa buat diri sendiri! Tho its not my fault pun, hikmah dia : sila berusaha sendiri!
Erghh..
Now tunggu kak kay bg race kit. Hmm..this is the last marathon utk taun ni kut. Adehh.
29 October 2015
Orang baru.
Alhamdulillah.
Aku adalah org yg sangat teruja dgn berita tu.
The moment bila dia pregnant, aku ada instinct yg mengatakan
ianya baby gurl. At lasts, mmg GIRL..Syukran Ya Allah.
Aku laa paling happy, tapi 'hidden' happy.
Maybe sbb ada crisis between me n her before yg membuatkan kami
berenggang buat seketika.
Mungkin masa akan menentukan cerita kami. Well, aku jug ada alasan tersendiri
kenapa aku terus begini. Sungguhpun kita berjauhan, sayang aku tu x pernah berubah.
Aku tetap syg dan cintakan dia dunia akhirat.
Apapun, aku sangat happy dgn kehamilan dia. Sungguh!
Moga Allah lindungi dia dan kandungannya. Aamiin Ya Rabb.
Nnt nk shopping baju bby girl tu. Excited sgt! Allahuakkbar.
Aku la yang teringin sgt nak bby girl.
Moga satu hari nnt aku dpt bby girl juga.
Tiba2 teringat lahirkan AII, semuanya sangat mudah.
Hanya sakit untuk 2 jam, dan aku berjaya keluarkan Imran 3.66KG jam 0805 pagi Jumaat,
14.11.2014 tanpa sebarang drugs. Okay tipu, etonoks gas tu ada juga kan tho it is very light.
Bukan takat mudah keluarkan anak itu, malah menjaganya juga mudah!
Sampai ke hari ni, tdur malamnya dari 9PM sampai ke pagi!! Dah nak setahun umurnya!!
Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah!
*tahukah anda gender bby ditentukan oleh suami.
Apa2 pun rezeki anak itu dtgnya dari Allah, maka, Allah lebih tahu apa yang terbaik
buat kita semua.
Rabbi yassir, walatu'assir.. :)
Aku adalah org yg sangat teruja dgn berita tu.
The moment bila dia pregnant, aku ada instinct yg mengatakan
ianya baby gurl. At lasts, mmg GIRL..Syukran Ya Allah.
Aku laa paling happy, tapi 'hidden' happy.
Maybe sbb ada crisis between me n her before yg membuatkan kami
berenggang buat seketika.
Mungkin masa akan menentukan cerita kami. Well, aku jug ada alasan tersendiri
kenapa aku terus begini. Sungguhpun kita berjauhan, sayang aku tu x pernah berubah.
Aku tetap syg dan cintakan dia dunia akhirat.
Apapun, aku sangat happy dgn kehamilan dia. Sungguh!
Moga Allah lindungi dia dan kandungannya. Aamiin Ya Rabb.
Nnt nk shopping baju bby girl tu. Excited sgt! Allahuakkbar.
Aku la yang teringin sgt nak bby girl.
Moga satu hari nnt aku dpt bby girl juga.
Tiba2 teringat lahirkan AII, semuanya sangat mudah.
Hanya sakit untuk 2 jam, dan aku berjaya keluarkan Imran 3.66KG jam 0805 pagi Jumaat,
14.11.2014 tanpa sebarang drugs. Okay tipu, etonoks gas tu ada juga kan tho it is very light.
Bukan takat mudah keluarkan anak itu, malah menjaganya juga mudah!
Sampai ke hari ni, tdur malamnya dari 9PM sampai ke pagi!! Dah nak setahun umurnya!!
Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah!
*tahukah anda gender bby ditentukan oleh suami.
Apa2 pun rezeki anak itu dtgnya dari Allah, maka, Allah lebih tahu apa yang terbaik
buat kita semua.
Rabbi yassir, walatu'assir.. :)
27 October 2015
Ukiran jiwa
*tiap kali dgr lagu ni, aku sentiasa teringat dia.
Rindunya nauzubillah. Moga Allah permudahkan urusan dia.
Jagakan dia untukku.
Aamiin.
Ukiran jiwa
Kedamaian yang ku cari
Masih belum terbukti
Jauh lagi perjalanan ini
Jiwa tak pernah tenteram
Kasih lama tenggelam
Di lubuk hati yang paling dalam
Berlumutlah ukiran impian
Entah berapa lama
Harus ku nanti
Sinar kasih sayang menyinari kembali
Dengan nada lagu dan irama
Ku luahkan jua rasa kecewa
Semoga kau dapat mendengarnya
Semoga terbuka pintu cinta... mu
Yang pasti hujan tak berterusan
Matahari kan tetap terus bersinar
Kini terbukti apa yang di nanti
Dengan rela ku lepas kau pergi
Telah sedekat kenangan terpahat
Di ruang tak bertempat oo... ho...
Dengan nada lagu dan irama
Ku luah kan jua rasa kecewa
Pada cinta yang dahulu kita
Ukirkan bersama...
Di ruang asmara
Di bumi yang nyata
Di dunia kita...
Rindunya nauzubillah. Moga Allah permudahkan urusan dia.
Jagakan dia untukku.
Aamiin.
Ukiran jiwa
Kedamaian yang ku cari
Masih belum terbukti
Jauh lagi perjalanan ini
Jiwa tak pernah tenteram
Kasih lama tenggelam
Di lubuk hati yang paling dalam
Berlumutlah ukiran impian
Entah berapa lama
Harus ku nanti
Sinar kasih sayang menyinari kembali
Dengan nada lagu dan irama
Ku luahkan jua rasa kecewa
Semoga kau dapat mendengarnya
Semoga terbuka pintu cinta... mu
Yang pasti hujan tak berterusan
Matahari kan tetap terus bersinar
Kini terbukti apa yang di nanti
Dengan rela ku lepas kau pergi
Telah sedekat kenangan terpahat
Di ruang tak bertempat oo... ho...
Dengan nada lagu dan irama
Ku luah kan jua rasa kecewa
Pada cinta yang dahulu kita
Ukirkan bersama...
Di ruang asmara
Di bumi yang nyata
Di dunia kita...
23 October 2015
Lunch
Food poisoned from Monday till today nak masuk apa2 dlm mulut terasa mual.
So aku cont layan makan 2-3 sudu sebelum stop utk yg nextnya. Selera ada, tapi
tekak menolak semua suapan yg ke 3 dan ke atas. Badan terasa lesu dan x bermaya secara seluruhnya.
Smlm went up to clinic, Dr Rahman bg antibiotics. So, I'm officially on antibiotic la
start yesterday. Lemah aku disebabkan kurangnya air dlm badan. So guess, I need to drink plenty
of water today. 'liquid up your body ain!' - Thanks to weck for the company n dinner treats. :)
Terasa semua org jauh dari aku skrg. Sakit pun tanggung sorang2.. dlm xsampai beberapa saat aku
monolog dalaman begitu, tiba2 dtg pula encik azran, sarjit and Dr leong havockan meja gue.
Worr..terasa kene setepek kat muka dr Tuhan yg Satu. Ahaha.. Nampak x yg Allah xnk kau
rasa dunia ni kau sorang je ada masalah. Walhal Allah tu yg dekat dgn kau (near than jugular veins)
kau boleh x terfikir??? Hamekkk kau ain.
Thanks guys! You rawk my lunch!
Yes, I'm not alone!
_blue
16 October 2015
Buka Braces.
HAPPY!
Almost 2 months dah.
And the teeth is oll back in track.
bila makan apa2 atau gigit roti
bekas gigitan teratur je semua.
seronok.
3 years with braces.
tiada masalah gigi skrg.
Nak jaga gigi baik2!
Nnt aku update cerita pembukaan
braces ni.
Thanks DR HAZWAN!
Gud Job!!
| Aku ber-braces bukan kerana ingin cantik. kesihatan mulut yg teruk pada masa lepas, sampai kena paksa dgn Dr Hazwan utk pakai ini. Akhirnya! Alhamdulillah. 5 tooth extraction. No X-Ray needed. DONE!! |
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