honest?

slm...sorry 2 say,cuz da berhari2 aku x publish akunyer blog ni..

hurm..aku baru je blik dari kelantan 2 hari lepas..teman grandma aku gi konvo cousin aku..kat KB.. then yg pegi nya 10 pax,yg di invite soang jek..hampeh.. then kitorg..aku,boyfriend aku,kakak aku,BIL skali,adik aku yg no 8,my mum and my dad..my grandma skali.. campur ngan pak ngah aku,bini dai ngan cousin aku gi umah kakak aku no 2..hahaha...rumitnya nak sebut 1 per 1.. then kitowg lunch..then terus gerak gi satu tempat nama dia Pengkalan Kubur.. kat situ bukan ada kubur seperti yg aku sangkakan...malu sehh...rupanya tmpat org bli brg murah2..hampeh..yg paling best part terghezut sebab signboard tpi jalan dah tulis dekat ngan Tak Bai.. pastu gi amik gamba bdekatan..then lepak 1 hari umah pakngah aku..esok nya sebelum balik sempat gi kandang kambing,then semelih sekor wat lunch...aku dah arr x makan kambing..loya tekak aku.. yg magis nya..aku bleh makan lak.. tapi sket je arr.. then kitorang gerak balik..

My journey from writing diary to publishing on this site..

For a change, I want to write something rather serious today, as subject..(b4 that.. find me..where am i in this pict?)

I always think that my life is dramatic enough to put it into an interesting story to share with you all..

But as I went along with my writing, it meant more than simply to relive those incidents which is occur in my daily routine..

And all i wanted you to know is..i've been started writing diary since form 1..and keep on writing until now..but lately,i've found this site..and stop writing in a diary book.. by writing them out, and eventually showing them to people, it is a kind of self-acceptance to my life, to me,writing on these site,it is some kind of my hobby and the way to release my tension..at lease i feel more comfortable being here,lots of entertainment also..

So,for those who is reading my blog.. this is how I come about to my exploration, beginning from multiply. I looked into my contacts,groups and so on.. to learn people’s interests, and find relevant bloggers to become my reference..

guess what time is now?

maybe it's being late for me to getting sleep.. but,i dunno why..

sedar x sedar,dah lebih sebulan gak ar aku melepakkan diri kat umah..ermm..letih gak.. i guess,it is time for me to seeking any job.. macam2 gak yg nak kena settle kan..
Hari ni tadi dalam kul 10 aku dah gerak gi kampus,nak gi register. Sampai je tadi kat cafe dlm kul 1.30,then aku ajak arr bebudak aku turun lunch..dalam kul 3.00 aku blah gi chancellory nak settle payment..Q punyer lah mak datuk panjang,sampai ada mamat sekor ni yg cakap "ni,kismas pun belum tentu giliran aku lg..!" aku tersenyum kambing jek..
sesampai je giliran aku maybe tepat dalam kul 4.45 pm taim office nak tutup. nasib baik sempat.
pastu gi jumpa mdm azlia,kelentong skit,then abis citer..dia kasik aku excuse arr x yah attend class.. then balik ke cafe smula bli air tebu..(faveret aku tuh) then nampak subra,di ateman aku tunggu bas..huhu baik ati dia.. di amik Bach SE. Tadi pun lepak ngan tupye,faiz pening yg 12 ari bulan ni nak blah US..shiharudin,faiz subang,GG ngan panjang. diorang cakap rindu kat aku..huhuh terharu lah pulak..

Balik nek bas sampai BB (batang Bjuntai) tukar bas pudu,then gerak..aku duk sblah minah india,bau dia punya la tengik,nauzubillah.. then aku buta kan idung aku.. then sampai ijok,ada mamat sekor ni naik dan bdiri depan aku,maybe xda seat kot..then disaat aku pejam mata,dia take advantage lak..memula tu aku x syak apa2,few second later,dia mula berani pegang breast aku.. PU>KI>MAK...!! jantan jalang ni nak kena penerajang sulung aku gak nya.. aku terpaksa dekat kan badan aku kat minah bau busuk tuh,then minah india ni turun,jantan ni duk ar sbalah aku,aku jeling ar dia,then dlm x sampai beberapa saat kmudian dia buat2 tdo then letak tgn atas paha aku lak.. ni mmg nak cari pasal.. aku belum nak wat tindakan,dia dah ubah agenda,dia wat2 nak lentok atas bahu aku. aku geram,aku tolak kepala dia mcm bola gak arr,dia terghezut,then aku bangun duk kusi lain yg kbetulan ada orang dah turun taim tuh..dia tpinga2(buat2) then sengih arr kononyer.. yg paling tak tahan dia pegang anu dia tu,hish..ampun kan lah dosa aku..

hari ni mood x baik.. ngan dia pun aku x layan..td ada roger aku nak gi spital tgk orng sakit,then x jadi..erm..then cakap nak demam..kesian gak,aku lak xda mood nak layan.. da 2 hari gak arr x jumpa dia.. aku ingat nak jarakkan lagi hari untuk kami bjumpa.. sebab hubungan ni dah x seindah dulu.. so cari iniciative baru arr agar masing2 x rasa jemu.. maybe nnt aku keja dah kurg arr masa tuk bsma. tggu jek arr nnt..well.. hari khamis ni dia gi penang,umah mmber kawin.. aku nyer plan,nak kuar cari keja,selain lepak ngan member.. kalau xda gak,balik melaka arr keje kat kampung..aman sikit dari fikir ttg dia dan rindu aku..aku terlalu ikut kan perasaan sgt sampai sentiasa nak dia jumpa aku..sedang kan aku tahu dia ada tggungjwb dia.. aku keterlaluan! dah tiba masanya untuk aku bagi dia buat apa yg dia nak buat.

Alright..from now,it's time to not to be pamper myself too much! i must find something new to let myself not to think about him anymore..(a bit unless) kalau ada jodoh btemu jua..

nites..