New Friend

Kak ira dan Baby Ichaa (girl)
(anak angkat aku)

Kak Ira.
38yrs,
Ukay Perdana 5.

1st met kat unit Neonate Intensive Care Unit (NICU) Hosp Ampang 17.11.2014 (4 days after giving birth to Imran Issaac). -Imran high bilirubin reading (3++) aka Jaundice. (Yes he's having G6PD but Normal, while Adam Danial were G6PD Deficiency)

Alhamdulillah, sepanjang hidup ni lebih banyak kenal dgn org yang baik2 dari org yang kurang baik dari segi perangainya. So, masa kat NICU, ni la kak yg selalu ambil berat n gemar bersembang sampai pagi. This is my 2nd experience menghuni unit mother placement bed dlm nicu ni. So x berapa nk emo disbbkn kakak yg comel n baik ni. Tapi aku banyak focus pada penyusuan badan spjg disana. Tapi doc n nurse straight sgt sbb meter reading bilirubin sgt2 tggi, so x boleh angkat anak, cuma sentuh sikit2 ja dibenarkan. Sedih mmg sedih..tapi kak ira sgt2 baik orgnya dlm melayan aku dan rakan2 yg lain.

Well, Setiap hari yg berlalu, kita slalu jumpa org baru dlm hidup. So there goes my part, met her IRA MASTIKA same size like me, gorgeous juga orgnya..cuma mmg sikapnya lay low. Apa yg aku nk cerita x penting utk korg pun, cuma nk tulis dlm blog ni bahawa..Aku yakin pertemuan antara aku dan dia adlh kehendak Allah. So, melihat kekurangan dia..dan kekurangan aku..tidak banyak bezanya. Cuma aku tertarik pd sikapnya yg down to earth n kecekalannya dlm surviving ujian Allah satu per satu. Amat besar ujian Allah pada dia. Mungkin dia dlm kekurangannya tu, dihadirkan aku dlm hidupnya mungkin sbg kawan dunia akhirat (who knows kan?) Kawan tolong menolong dan boleh diharapkan dlm susah dan senang. Maybe? #godknowsbest

We met again after 9 months lps kelua dari hosp. Sgt2 happy jumpa kawan kan? tapi x sangka bila dihabarkan nasib dia dlm kehidupan peribadinya, memberi ikhtibar pd aku sbg pengajaran. Well, secara x langsung, aku dan dia dah beli ticket utk vacation bersama anak2 for this upcoming sept ke KRABI. hihi..kelakar, tapi maybe ini permulaan hubungan persahabatan kami.

Aku harap, hubungan aku dan kak ira sampai ke syurga berkekalan. In shaa Allah, aamiin! Feel so closed to her and her kids like my own blood-sis.

Aku hanya mampu berdoa agar dia dikurniakan kesihatan yang berpanjangan, rezeki yang murah dan dipermudahkan urusan dlm mengharungi ujian ALLAH serta hari2 yang mendatang. Aamiin Ya Rabb.

_Sahabatmu

my heart singing the blues

Call Everyone by YuNa


Call everyone, call everyone
 And let them know
 I can’t stand no more

Call everyone, call everyone
 And let them know
 That I’m letting go

People always thought we were strong
 But I knew it all along
 But I knew it all along

You said you feel the pain
 Nothing’s been the same

Call everyone, call everyone
 So that they’ll know
 I’m moving on

Call everyone, call everyone
 And tell them
 We’ve done something wrong

People always say they’re in love
 Even though the road is long
 Even though the road is long

And I look in your eyes
 I can see you’re tired

People say it’s hard for a heart
 But you didn’t play your part
 But you didn’t play your part

And I felt so lonely
 Give it all I’ve got

My belly vs Kak Long belly in pregnancy Aidilfitri

 

Last year aku pregnant.

Tahun ni giliran dia.

Yang paling x sangka, dia x plan utk ini..

Tapi again??? Allah jualah sebaik2 perancangnya!

Therefore, No DOUBT towards ALLAH.

 

Kali ni Along dijangka bersalin bulan nov sama seperti kedua2

anak aku. Malah..yang mengejutkan lagi, bakal org baru ni

adalah GIRL!!

Allahurabbi! Happynyaaa! :)

Alhamdulillah.

 

 

 

Peel off nail color.
Along wearing red, mine black.

Love her belly button.

gorgeous big sis.

I'm gonna rawkkk your day.

2014 versus 2015!
Me preggy vs Along preggy.
ehehe..

Aidilfitri 1436H

 

Salam lebaran Buat Semua Umat Diseluruh Dunia.

Aku mohon kalian ampunkan segala kekhilafan yg ada

termasuk juga jika ada terkasar bahasa pd kalian.

 

Tahun ni merupakan tahun yang hebat buat diri ni.

Tapi setiap kejadian yang berlaku,

Allah adalah sebaik2 perancang buat kita.

DIA lebih mengetahui.

 

Jangan bersedih. Pasti ada kebaikan

dalam keburukan.

 

Therefore, trust ALLAH.

 

 

 

the positive woman.

Bryan Adams 5yo

The Ahmad's.
Arjuna Beta.

Grew up fast.

Entah apa yang paling syahdu,

melihat dua cahaya mata yang membesar dengan cepat.

Adam Danial makin faham dgn keadaan sekeliling.

Malah dia lebih eksaited utk Aidilfitri kali ni sehingga

merengek bila terlalu lama sgt dlm kereta,

tak sabar nk pergi raya!

Seronok dapat duit raya la tu.

 

Me : kenapa u dapat duit raya banyak?

Adam Danial : ye la, sbb saya suka raya.

Me : U nak beli apa nanti syg?

Adam Danial : Sy nk keep.

Me : Okay, bila da banyak nnt nk beli apa??

Adam Danial : Nak beli toys!

Me : (T__T)"

 

 

 

 

Weck n Our
Smart n Brilliant kiddos.

Imran Isaac the lovely baby!
Still bfeed during night.
Danial loves him so much!
xoxo_


 

Bob hair look.

yes, I've cut my hair.

tiba2 decide nk potong rambut kat Miko, Alpha Angle.

 

1. sbb Imran Issaac da mula menyembur air liur.

2. dia da start tarik rambut aku

3. Rambut dah berbulu2 dilantai rumah

4. Rimas

 

Usah ditangisi lagi,

dah mmg jipang rupa rambut gua.

kadang2 je okay. hahhaha

Tapi mmg nekad nk short hair.

walaupun aku tau nnt aku menyesal akhirnya.

kankankan..ahahahaha

 

 

Make it to me

Make it to me_Sam Smith

My mind runs away to you
 With a thought I hope you'll see
 Can't see where it's wandered to
 But I know where it wants to be

 (Pre-Chorus)
I'm waiting patiently
 Though time is moving slow
 I have one vacancy
 And I wanted you to know

 (Chorus)
That you're the one
 Designed for me
 A distant stranger
 That I will complete
 I know you're out there
 We're meant to be
 So keep your head down
 And make it to me
 Make it to me
 (Verse)

 So sick of this loneliness
 It seems such a waste of breath
 So much that I need to say
 So much to get off my chest

 (Pre-Chorus)
 I'm waiting patiently
 Though time is moving slow
 I have one vacancy
 And I wanted you to know

 (Chorus)
 That you're the one
 Designed for me
 A distant stranger
 That I will complete
 I know you're out there
 We're meant to be
 So keep your head down
 And make it to me
 Make it to me
 And make it to me
 Make it to me

Too Sober

Sober_Pink


I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest
Or the girl who never wants to be alone
I don't wanna be that call at four o'clock in the mornin'
'Cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home

Ah, the sun is blindin'
I stayed up again
Oh, I am findin'
That that's not the way I want my story to end

I'm safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside, you're my protection
But how do I feel this good sober?

I don't wanna be the girl that has to fill the silence
The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth
Please don't tell me that we had that conversation
'Cause I won't remember, save your breath 'cause what's the use?

Ah, the night is callin'
And it whispers to me softly, "Come and play"
I, I am fallin'
And if I let myself go I'm the only one to blame

I'm safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside, you're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Comin' down, comin' down, comin' down
Spinnin' 'round, spinnin' 'round, spinnin' 'round
I'm lookin' for myself, sober

Comin' down, comin' down, comin' down
Spinnin' 'round, spinnin' 'round, spinnin' 'round
Lookin' for myself, sober

When it's good then it's good, it's so good till it goes bad
Till you're trying to find the you that you once had
I have heard myself cry, "Never again"
Broken down in agony, just tryin' find a friend

I'm safe up high, nothing can touch me
But why do I feel this party's over?
No pain inside, you're like perfection
But how do I feel this good sober?

Keep myself busy with books.

Thou, there's so many things so say..

but sometimes its better left unspoken.

 

The reason of being like this, maybe its been

kept for a long time. And I chose to explode now.

But please, dun bother ask y. 

 

I'm done with this game.

 

 

*love this book. Mendalami bagaimana mendidik anak.
.."Sentuh pd hati, pasti igt sampai mati.." *nak sentuh bagaimana? itu juga ilmu wahai ibu bapa sekalian..keep readings ~ the nucleus of knowledge.

31 May 2015 Kampung dan Kenduri Orang

 

Sebulan sekali balik kg. Kadang tu x sampai sebulan pun.

Sian pulak kat org tua yg sentiasa menunggu anak2 balik. So, kali ni aku balik

bawa weck. Kerap juga aku balik dgn anak2, tapi ntah angin apa weck nak join. Tak mengharap.

Tak banyak xtvt sbb balik pun nk tgk org tua n bawa anak2 jumpa cousins dia.

 

Gerak balik dlm kul 8 pg (30.5.2015), sampai dalam 10 pagi.

Excited part dia, bila kak long aku pun balik.

Sbb kalau xda dia aku rasa macam malas nak balik.

haha..bole x alasan tu? kehkehkeh..



The Oreo Project

Cheese Oreo

Cat and Roses

Porch with Owner rumah Semi D ni. (big sis)

Project memeningkan mommy2.
Biasalah boys kan.

love port ni.

Kdg2 nampak comel plak aku ni.
well, slalunya aku mmg selekeh.
ahaha mmg admit it! kahkahkah

Frm begin nyampah baju pengantin ni,
skali da pakai nmpak okay plak.
 Haha..pelik knp akak aku xnak buat makeup job lg,
even xnak pun, jual laa baju2 nih..hehe



Me n Big Sis kesayangan!
(the serbaboleh person that I've ever known!)



Red Velvet simple cuppy cakes

Bake this for Mother's Day last month.

Mama in law ckp sedap. So do adik ipar juga.

I'm happy!

 

Then tiba2 ada staffs OPD (out patient dept)

si Kamarul (budak IJN marathon 2014)

request nk rasa,so aku gigihkan buat lagi.

 

Video comel RV ni kat dalam fb sbnrnya.

Sangat simple recipe dia..hanya utk 8-9 cupcakes shj.

 

 

RV Cuppy. (20-25 mins DONE!)

 

 

 

 

Again i am back in track. Live Great Run May 2015

Street Art

me n aD (big Sis)

She snap this! Wee

I love you to the moon n back!

I'm Fly High

Bluesands

aD n Me

the Finisher Medalion

Water Station

Mwah!

Peace!

Bluesands.

Pic IMRAN di awal kelahiran

Pic di awal kelahiran dan 3-4 hari selepas kelahiran.

 

AHMAD IMRAN ISSAAC

BIN

MOHD HAZWAN

 

 

Pic right after delivery

Big sis wit Imran.
She's pregnant now!! hehe..

Di bedung

Under 3 phototheraphy,
Bilirubin 320 reading!

Enjoy in ward 4A!
a.k.a 2nd class.

Sleeping baby

1st post dan Kelahiran Imran Issaac

Dah nak 1/2 tahun baru nak start balik blogging.
Haha..yang pasti ianya bukan pengakhiran bagi penulisan aku disini.

Secara amnya, aku ada diary. So agak malas nk cerita 2 kali. Soft copy n hard copy.
Hihihi..

So what's up?
How's life?
Any diff?

Okay2 begin with my 2nd "org baru" dlm snall family kami. His name is..

Ahmad Imran Issaac Bin Mohd Hazwan.
DOB : 14-11-2014
POB : Hosp Ampang
Weight : 3.65kg
Apgar S: 2.3

Alhamdulillah selang 5 year with big bro. Frm begin which I thod..abis laa
jarak jauh dgn anak sulung..sure jln keluar da x Nampak. Hahaa..
tu la JGN meragukan kuasa Tuhan, pasti ada bahagiannya. Sakit itu pasti,
tapi yang meringan kan sakit tu, ALLAH. So banyakkan meminta pada DIA
supaya dipermudahkan urusan. In shaa Allah.

Pengalaman melahirkan Imran sgt sweet. Sbb sekejap sgt sakit tu. Sangat indah.
2014 tahun banyak bersedih. plus taun tu juga dari awal kehamilan, lidah aku x pernah
untuk berhenti berzikir. Tak kisah driving, buat kerja or kat rumah. Maybe sbb rasa
diri yg penuh dgn dosa..mungkin dgn amalan yg sehalus kuman atau mungkin lebih x Nampak
amalan aku tu In shaa Allah boleh tolong aku di akhirat kelak. Aamiin.

Bersalin 14-11-14 (jumaat 8pg) bg aku sgt2 dirahmati. Aku bersyukur. Sbb tarikh kelahiran tu
bukan kerja manusia yg menentukan. Aku overdue 9 days. Sama mcm anak sulung.
Kedua2nya lahir pada hari jumaat. Alhamdulillah.

Hari yg ke -4 Aku masuk NICU dgn Imran sbb bilirubin yg tggi. Same case dgn anak sulung.
Got G6PD, but Normal. Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah! Alhamdulillah! Tak jemu aku bersyukur.
Asalkan anak sihat itu juga rezeki bg aku. Discharge on day 4. Dpt kawan2 yg gila2 mcm aku kat dlm Intensive ward tu. Mak2 yg lebih kurang umur dan happening. Percaya atau x, kami masih berhubung dlm whatsapp. Group bernama (GENG SPITAL AMPANG) hehehe..best!

Rini 12hb, lagi 2 hari Imran genap 6 bulan! how time flies!! Nnt aku share pic Imran dari masa ke semasa.


_Blue

My Baby Bump for Last Trimesters

 

 

Hi..

As now, my baby is in fullterm.

fully bake n ready to pop out

anytime from now on.

 

 

Guys, maafkan aku kalau terkasar bahasa,

menyinggung perasaan melalui penulisan aku

disini. Tak sabar nk tggu kelahiran 'org baru' dlm keluarga

kecil kami. Nama juga belum dipilih lg.

manakala brg baby pun ada yg belum dibeli lg..

hehe..

 

 

Kami bakal diserikan lg dengan Hero ke 2!

Moga disempurnakan kejadiannya,

akhlaknya..

peribadinya..

tuturnya..

imannya..

Dgn nama Allah yg Maha Pemurah

lagi Maha Pengasihani.

Aamiin ya rabb!

 

-blue

He love me.

 

He loves his adik baby so much. I can see it from his eyes.

everyday conversation, he wont forget to mention about adik baby.

Alhamdulillah..Allah je tahu perasaan ni.

Jarak dia genap 4 tahun dgn baby.. ye la sama bulan pula tu, NOV!

Adam Danial 2010

Adik Baby 2014

 

Ayat dia setiap kali, setiap hari!!

 

**"mummy x leh mkn coklat sy, adik baby..papa je bole.."

**"sy x nak mummy!!! Sy nak adik baby dgn papa je..!!!"

**"heyyy..swords ninja utk sy, sword transformer utk adik baby..bukan mummy!!!"

**"tinggal mummy! sy nk adik baby n papa je ikut.."

**"ehhh!! mummy x bolehhhh..papa n adik baby je bole sbb boy!"

**"papa,adam n adik baby boyyy..mummy girl!! haha..mummy sorang2 xde kawan!!"

 

(T____________________T)

 

 

hookay fine!! sentap!!

 

 

 

adik baby ckp ape mummy?

adik baby kuar kat pusat eh mummy?
nnt pusat mummy koyak, pastu mummy mati!
siann mummy!


(T____T)


Baiklah!
 

Anjungan Beach and Spa Resort Pangkor

 

Kinda late to post abt our last trip to Pangkor.


Weck has been promised me satu masa dulu nk bw g Pangkor. Lama dulu laa masa xde anak lg. Dia ckp Pangkor x best sgt.. tapi itu je permintaan aku which AKHIRNYA.. dia buat surprise g pangkor!!!

Speechless of course. An unplanned trip, mmg sgt mengujakan. Well after been a while xda g mana2 vacation for three of us. Last pun tahun 2011, g SABAH.

What else la kita sbg wife ni nk kan? selain dari 'hadiah' quality time from our ketua keluarga kan. And of course kita mahukan family vacation!! hehe..mmg x terfikir dia nk bawa g pangkor..sbb ye la tgh bulan, gaji pun xda nk boros2.. Kebetulan weck ckp ada family day kat LUMUT. So kami pergi awal (jumaat) dah cuti..sbb weck ada keja sikit. Hati berbunga dah time ni..walaupun tatau where to stay sbb pergi early 1 day b4 family day BPII (Bhgn Pembgn Ind Infrastruktur MARA).

Abis je keja around 4pm kat LUMUT, weck bw g tempat org slalu shopping ikan kering n sotong kering femes kat lumut. Teruja sgt, weck siap bg few bucks beli apa yg aku nak. Weee...sangat2 girang! Borong sotong kering bergula tu berkoyan2 sampai dia sound suh belikan skli utk staff Brainy Bunch (aunty2 yg jaga adam kat skool). Sweet kan dia.

Part shopping done, dia drive sampai Marina Bay..dlm hati aku "maybe nk bawa ank tgk the ships.." -tekaan salah sbb dia suh bawa baju beberapa helai sbb nak naik ferry n tdur PANGKOR!!

Yeayyyy!! Here we go!! Kebetulan weck ada kawan yg memiliki resort kat pulau tu. Well didn't aspect much ttg condition resort, tapi bila sampai je resort tuuuuuuuu..sangat laaa heaven! Swimming pool dpn bilik je. Check in je weck ajak swimming dah dgn adam skali..hihi. Aku x bw baju, tgk je laa..hihi. Best part, pagi2 weck ajak jalan dpn resort..pantai laa apa lg.. sgt2 cantik.

Apa2 pun..its a new memory for me towards him. Thanks weck syg. Walaupun u tatau betapa nk menjerit happynya hati ni saat u bawa I g pulau tu, aku laa org yg xkn lupa indahnya nikmat ALLAH bg disamping setia berada disisi suami mcm u.

-maybe x secantik mabul or any island yg standing..tapi once janji dikota.. Allah shj tahu betapa manisnya nikmat 'gembiranya' waktu itu. Alhamdulillah.


Blue.



 

 

anjungan the best!

weck treat for dinner

selfie

me,weck n adam danial

weck snap2 our pic!

entrance

cheeky buoy!

reception

pool watch -weck n adams swimming

the room

jet ski buoy

morning dpn resort

check out

preggy on 3rd trimester!

Blue.